Thursday, 6 September 2018

LET'S TALK ABOUT PANIC ATTACKS

Okay so I’m not discreet about my mental health and I do talk about it a lot, but after a panic attack the other day I really wanted to discuss what they are, what they feel like, and why people get them. I will attach a link to the NHS page for panic attacks at the bottom of the page, plus other factual stuff. 

WHAT THEY ARE
A panic attack is essentially what it says on the tin; an attack of panic. Your body goes into 'fight or flight' and releases a bunch of hormones, such as cortisol, causing you to feel panicked, frightened, anxious and alarmed with no explainable, logical reasoning. They are comprised of a series of physical symptoms including (but not limited to) irregular heartbeat, nausea, dizziness, and shortness of breath. According to the NHS, panic attacks usually last somewhere from 5 to 20 minutes.

WHAT THEY FEEL LIKE
As someone who spent their college years experiencing panic attacks on an almost daily basis, I can confirm that they honestly feel like you are dying. People often mistake panic attacks for heart attacks which only proves the severity of how it feels when they happen. 

WHY PEOPLE GET THEM
People get panic attacks for a multitude of reasons and the reasoning behind each one is often unknown. Getting panic attacks can be a sign that you are suffering from stress, panic disorder, anxiety, depression, grief and so so much more. Essentially it means that emotionally you are dealing with a lot

Now let's discuss my most recent panic attack...

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Wednesday, 29 August 2018

LIDL BLACK DRESS

DRESS - MONKI via ASOS
EARRINGS - NEWLOOK
SUNGLASSES - TOPSHOP

So I bought this flippin’ adorable baby doll dress on sale from asos a little while ago and I adore it, I had to size up slightly due to the way the bust of the dress is quite small and flat... and I am not. I’ve not had any dressing up opportunities to wear it hence these pics being in Lidl but I feel well cute when I wear it and it fits perfectly into my weird toddler/ grandma chic wardrobe. 

I am actually wearing this dress with cycling shorts because it looks quite sweet to have them poking out the bottom.. though it turns out you can’t actually see them most of the time. Either way, I like wearing this dress like this. It’s very short and I definitely couldn’t do much at all other than stand still, indoors, without the shorts. 



If you read my last post you may be curious about how my new job is going and I’m glad to say I love it. It’s tiring and it keeps me busy and that’s what I wanted. To be busy and smiley and chatty and then to go home and be tired enough for bed. I still have my library job too and am still in love with it, I don’t think I could ever leave the libraries. I’m not working there as much but having a shift there between two shifts in retail is refreshing and just lovely. 

For someone who had to get a rail replacement bus to work this morning, I’m feeling pretty positive and happy. That could be due to the fact I spent the journey listening to Wolf Alice and am now sat in costa with a flat white though...

I think once I’m used to my new routine I’ll start a very official and proper blogging schedule. I’m thinking perhaps Monday’s, Wednesdays and Fridays but we shall see, let me know if you have any thoughts! 

IWx 

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Wednesday, 22 August 2018

POLKA DOT PERFECTIONIST

 DRESS - VINTAGE NEXT
JACKET - VINTAGE LEVI'S

Last week I had a job interview and tomorrow I start and I'm so flippin' excited. This was what I wore and how contended I was sipping coffee outside afterwards. This is my absolute favourite dress I own (I probably say that about all my dresses- I'm a dress whore what can I say) and I wear it on every occasion possible. It's super comfortable and flattering, it looks sick with my tattoo, dressed up and dressed down.



In general, I am a pretty confident person but this outfit increases that by about 5000% and the sunglasses especially make me feel très sassy. I'm excited to start my new job, to be a bit busier and to get back into somewhat of a routine. I've been thinking a lot about my working wardrobe and how I can feel appropriate at work without buying too many new things and I don't think it's going to be difficult. 

I like to think that I'm someone who doesn't feel the need to buy into new trends and cheap fast fashion - though I have fallen victim to it of course - and am consciously trying to be more sustainable but just as stylish as often as possible. Pieces like this vintage dress and my denim jacket are perfect examples of this, both always appropriate within my wardrobe, very me and very versatile.


You may think to mention my new job and my attempts to be more sustainable have no link whatsoever but my new job arguably has a lot to do with fast fashion. I want to talk about it more and I will with time. Though I am working for a clothing brand, who do sell a lot of things you probably don't need, they have an ethos I am in 100% agreement with and their aims are not to add to waste whatsoever.

IWx
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Tuesday, 14 August 2018

BEACHY

It's undeniable that I've had a flippin' busy summer. I have not stopped, I'm really hoping it slows down now because I need to chill. 


Despite being busy though, I spent last week in Anglesey at my Grandma's with my family (minus Angus) and Finn and it was exhausting but super lovely. The weather was cooler than it had been and I packed no jumpers but it was still sunny and pleasant and we managed to just about miss the rain. 


Finn and I got the train to Bangor, to then be collected by my parents, which I had never done before, we somehow managed to change trains twice on the way which seemed unnecessary but it felt like an adventure. Because I am apparently terrible at packing, I wore a new-to-me vintage dress I got in the charity shop which was weather appropriate until we got to Wales. Where I was inevitably freezing.

We didn't do too much when we first got there, we obviously went to see Grandma first and Finn got to meet her which I was way too excited about, then we went to spend our evening in Penmon, then got chips in Beau Maris on the way home. 



Penmon is collectively our favourite place in Anglesey. It's usually not too busy and it is always beautiful and calm regardless of weather etc. It is the nicest place to just be. My dress also seemed to somewhat camouflage with the pebbles so that was weird. We *tried* to skip pebbles on the sea, climbed over lot's of big rocks and got a coffee because I was hangry.

I was going to share a lot more of our little trip with you but I'm not sure I need to. All you need to know is we had a lovely week despite missing Angus and the cat and the chickens quite a lot...

IWx 
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Friday, 10 August 2018

SUMMER STRIPES



SHIRT - MONKI
SKIRT - URBAN OUTFITTERS
SHOES - CONVERSE

Goood afternoon and howdy hey... I had planned to have this blog post out a little sooner but somehow became distracted or too busy or something. These photos were taken the day after buying this monki shirt, last week whilst it was definitely too hot for such long sleeves but I was desperate to wear it. 

I realise it's not particularly amazing or groundbreaking styling but since I wasn't actually doing much other than mooching about I didn't see the point and there is never anything wrong with a denim mini.


As well as buying this shirt the day before I also got the best haircut of my life, hair modelling at Vidal Sassoon in manchester. I've never been so obsessed with my own hair and it was so nice leaving it up  to someone else instead of trimming it myself and getting my sister to sort out the bits I can't see or reach...

I got a graduated bob and a soft fringe and I love it. My fringe has never looked nor behaved better in my life and I'm so chuffed.



In other news I'm back to reading fiction and whatever I want instead of text books and though it's great, I still feel like I don't quite have enough time to read as much as I'd like. I'm currently reading Zadie Smith, Swing Time - which I am enjoying, or rather was enjoying the morning I read 10 chapters in a row, however now I sort of read a couple of pages and it back down... I'm not sure why.

I also did a little book order a couple of weeks ago so I have a lovely little stack to get stuck into and I'm well ready for it, perhaps I'll start some sort of book review feature on the blog, let me know what you think!

IWx
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Friday, 3 August 2018

"CONGRATULATIONS... SO WHAT ARE YOU DOING NOW THEN?"

Admiring/ Prancing about in my graduation dress until the inspiration for a life plan comes to me.



So I graduated, which I reckon the whole world knows about since my grad photos were my most liked Instagram posts in a  W H I L E... regardless of my bitterness about my social media stats it was a wonderful day and I had the luxury to request a dress from my mother.

Quite like prom, the best part of the graduation ceremony was the fact that I was wearing a beautiful dress, designed and made by my mom. Obviously, the best part about graduating was literally that I was graduating but I don't actually feel like going into that too much, I'm clever-ish, you get it. 

We based the design for my dress on these photos below of my Grandma in the early 1970s. I have admired the dress in these pictures for a long time and I think had somehow subliminally decided I wanted it without at all realising. I decided and described to my mom that I wanted to graduate in a white lace mini shift dress - to which she pointed out, it would be rather similar to this dress I had admired so much.




My dress is noticeably very different to my grandmas, we decided to use some lace my mom had in her fabric stash already and add some buttons to the front - like my Grandmas dress had - and I love it soooooo much. Paired with my Stella McCartney shoes and nothing much else, I felt very chic and understated in just the right way. 

As for having to wear a massive black polyester gown and a silly hat, I am not keen. It was WAY too hot to be in those things but apparently, they don't actually let you graduate without them. I quite liked the hat and the fact that you can see everyone who is graduating and feel all proud and lovely. Essentially, the sentiment of it all is nice, but in reality, you are just too hot.

It may be TMI but I chose to wear a bralette under this dress instead of a bra just for my own comfort. Though I know it would have looked better with a bra underneath, I also knew it was going to be a long day and prioritised comfort. 



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Sunday, 29 July 2018

SPLENDOUR AND SIMPLE FESTIVAL STYLING

OK, so I've not been to loads and loads of festivals, and I've never been to a festival longer than one day, but I've been to a handful and I wore clothes to all of them so I'm definitely qualified to write this post. If there's one thing I know how to do, it's how to wear clothes.



The first rule is to be comfortable, both physically and mentally. At the very least you're there all day, if not for a few days, you don't want tight waistbands or stiff shapes- in this sense I think it is pretty easy to stick to basics you'd wear doing day to day tasks, skirts and trousers etc. I'm also the type of person who'd get crazy annoyed at wearing wired bras all day so I stick to bralettes. Another essential in being comfortable is old comfy shoes - you do not want blisters. Being comfortable mentally is also just as important, make sure what you're wearing is something you're happy and confident in, feeling self-conscious all day will ruin what could be great memories and so much fun.



Secondly, festivals are hot and sweaty and pretty gross so rule two is minimal makeup, maximum glitter. You don't want make-up doing that gross thing where it moves around your face and you just feel disgusting... just put glitter on, under your eyes - like my gems -, on your cheekbones or chest and not only will you be a sparkly goddess but you'll distract from everything else. At splendour, I wore a base of BB cream, bronzer, powder and highlighter, topped with Gypsy Shrine eye jewels and a little mascara and it was just enough.

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Monday, 23 July 2018

LEARNING TO LOVE MY NAKED FACE

Blonde lashes and blonde brows, pale skin and dark circles, freckles on my nose and spots on my chin. I remember discovering concealer being a pretty great day for me, I'd had a complex about the dark circles under my eyes for as long as I could remember and had longed for a way to remove them and look a little less dead...


I have however always had pretty good, clear skin and as I've got older have decided I quite like my face, I like my freckles and my porcelain skin and I like wearing makeup but I also like not wearing it. There was a time when I would not feel comfortable or ready for the day without a full face of makeup and that wasn't ok for me - I had to feel happy in my own face.

I wish I could explain how I got there, but I think it was honestly realising I do not care. I do not care what people think of me, I do not care that you'll see my freckles or how tired I am from my face. I have far more important things to get done, and I can have so much more time to myself when I don't wear 10 million things on my face.



You don't have to be ok with your face and there is nothing wrong with makeup at all. I still love wearing makeup and wear it most days but everything feels a little lighter now that I don't feel like I have to.

IWx

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Friday, 13 July 2018

0161 GIRL AT HOME



At home in Stockport, the town I was born in and grew in and always feel at home in yet now feeling somewhat out of place. I'm an adult now. It is the first time I am in Stockport as an adult and it is strange. I got used to uni life in Nottingham and occasional trips and summers at home but now I'm just here and even though it isn't... it feels like that's it.

I am, however, over the moon to be back up north where complete strangers are friendly and overly polite and I gosh darn love it. I met up with Alex Ward, in Merseyway in Stockport who took the photos featured in this post, which I love. For the first time meeting him and doing a shoot with him, I'm very happy with how they turned out and how I don't look as awkward as I could have done. 





Stockport has also been particularly delightful during this heatwave, the old town is gorgeous and where I live is gorgeous but with actual sunlight and warmth, it is sooooooo much better. I'm actually also starting to look forward to things in life that aren't education, and moving away from the stress of knowing I'm done at uni and feeling like I need to have my life together in the next 5 minutes.

Because I don't need to have everything together and sorted and I have as long as I want to do cool stuff and be a grown up.



So, yes, I'm at home, I'm happy and that is pretty much it for today. The dress is asos, the top is a vintage jacket and my face is my face.

IWx
*All photo credit goes to Alexander Ward
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Thursday, 5 July 2018

SUPER HOT SUMMER UNIFORM


SUNGLASSES - PRIMARK

HELLOOOO HEAT WAVE! So, I packed my bag, grabbed Eden and Finn and jetted off to Tenerife, to come back to the exact same heat we had there. I'm not going to lie, I'm a bit of a sun dodger but I am loving the heat. I have also decided on somewhat of a summer uniform, outfits I adore to wear in summer, due to practicality and pretty vintage, south of France vibes. 

This outfit is one of my favourites, in that it is shorts and not a dress, they're white and keep you cool and I love them. I often hate how shorts fit me but these are comfortable and I don't hate how they look. The original idea was to get some white shorts to pair with white shirts but these turned out to be more of an off-white, with the tobacco stitching adding a touch of interest, whilst allowing for pairing with plenty of creams and beiges and I'm obsessed. 



I've admired weekday's clothing from a distance for a while, never actually having purchased anything, but when Eden offered to get me this t-shirt as a late birthday present I was soooo happy when it arrived. It's organic cotton and so soft and lovely, I love the font of the text and the oversized, boxy cropped shape, allowing to still be loosely tucked in. I'm not actually, exactly sure what "It's not nice to fool mother nature" is intended to mean, but I like the general sentiment of being honest and connected to the earth. I'm very happy to be a hippy over here. 
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