Monday, 29 May 2017

And the bees still buzz...

*Image by Dick Vincent - Facebook page here, Instagram here

You know when your heart aches for so long and you begin to feel numb. And everything new adds to the numbness and it feels like nothing will ever be okay again. That's what this week has been. I don't need to describe what happened in Manchester at all and I'm not going to, and though I'm filled with great amounts of sadness due to it amongst other things I've also never ever been prouder or happier to be from Manchester. The reaction of vast love and care and community such a terrible terrible thing has caused is why I adore Manchester so much. Maybe everywhere is the same and I have been more ignorant until now but I am filled with incredible amounts of love for the city I will always call home. 

Below I have linked some things that made me happy this week, despite being numb. 

Please comment things that have made you happy recently, we could all do with a bit more happiness.



Wednesday, 24 May 2017



I've done that thing where an entire outfit is from primark again which I hate that I do. I got the black skirt super duper cheap before christmas, the belt and body more recently and I do actually wear all three very frequently though together is one of my favourites. This outfit looks sick with heeled boots and a hat but also simply just with my converse and a red lip.

If you can't tell these photos were taken at The Barbican Centre in London and it was raining... It was actually gloriously sunny when we got up and ready so that was kind of annoying and being bare legged meant I did get rather cold later on. I really like the subtle textures of this outfit, the pinstripes combined with the tortoise shell effect of the belt and the worn denim. There's definitely a subtleness to it and I love it, I also really like how simple the shapes are in this outfit.

Barbican was cool. I feel like I'd prefer it if it were sunny, and if I'd had sufficient time to explore. I however, as always had a lovely time in London with lovely people and lovely food- including the best pizza ever and all the food at the Linda McCartney event which I can do a post on if you like?


Sunday, 21 May 2017



I never thought I'd own white jeans. Mostly because I'm the messiest person ever but also because I didn't like them... until I inevitably saw someone who I think is a million times cooler than me wearing an entirely white outfit and decided I wanted to be that cool.

I do adore them but I did spill coffee on them within the first 10 minutes of wearing them as well as getting lipstick, foundation and mud on them throughout the day? I honestly have no idea how but thankfully unless you inspected my legs with a magnifying glass you wouldn't have noticed. It was a rather warm day when the amazing Lydia shot this look for me so wearing all white was actually fab and I didn't really need my jacket at all. So in short I like these jeans though they definitely aren't practical to wear all the time.

As someone with a rather large wardrobe that seems to be ever-growing and never ending I definitely cherish items with memories or emotions that provoke thought a whole lot more than I do my most aesthetically beautiful or more expensive items. Part of this outfit does make me feel a bit emotionally uncomfortable and I don't want to shy away from admitting it. I'm not going to explicitly say why but it's an item of clothing I would never have even considered buying without being inspired by a very specific person and therefore sort of has happiness and sadness attached to it and I don't know why I'm telling you this. But if they ever by chance read this post, thank you, you will always mean a lot to me.

Sometimes I think I'm too much inside my own head and I don't really know what to do about it. After a trip back home to Manchester last week and a brief trip to London this week I'm feeling a lot smaller. Nottingham makes me feel safe and tall. Basically I never want to leave again. I'm very very nearly done with uni for this year though so I'm hoping that will give me the head space I so desperately need.


Wednesday, 17 May 2017


SOCKS - NIKE via asos

I think it's fairly obvious from this outfit, the location of the photos and my messy hair that it's exam season. I only had two exams this summer and they're actually both over with now which is a relief. Aside from the fact that I still have an assignment to write. It's also fairly obvious that my mother should have had her glasses on whilst taking these, however I actually quite like how they turned out.

The unfortunate thing about exam season is that you know the academic year is nearly over, which used to be the most exciting thing ever but when you completely adore your uni house and housemates and know come the end of july you HAVE to say goodbye it's pretty rubbish. 

On a positive note I'm just quite happy at the moment? I don't really know where to go from here with this post which means I should probably move on to doing my assignment..


Wednesday, 10 May 2017

Very Honest - Mental Health Awareness Week

- I asked on twitter what to do photo wise with this post. My sister said to draw a pineapple wearing a sombrero drinking tea. So there?

I don't keep it secret that I 'struggle'* with my mental health. I was diagnosed with severe anxiety when I was 17, though now I'd say I'm just occasionally subject to anxious thinking and am now somewhere between being diagnosed with Depression and Seasonal Affective Disorder- by this I mean I have diagnosed depression but my doctor and I do think it could be S.A.D. I take 100mg of Sertraline daily for my depression and have counselling sessions at university. 

I think it's so important to talk about this. There's nothing secret about the medication I take and I don't mind people having a little bit of insight into my mind, but that is all it is. Even if you also have similar experiences with mental health or are diagnosed with the same things, we are never truly going to know how it affects each one of us. We all have totally different lives which is of course reflected in our minds and therefore cannot be compared or judged.

When I was really little, people, especially teachers and my peers at school, would have described me as being 'shy' which quite frankly was ridiculous. I have never been shy. The reason I was quiet was because I was anxious and anxiety was holding me back from being as loud and outspoken as I can be. I didn't know this then, and neither did anyone else, but in reflection I can recognise when I had panic attacks about things like speaking in front of my class. I think too often mental health conditions are over generalised as being something you only experience in teenage and adult life and it's so important that we recognise that it isn't bound by age. It's just a thing that happens in some people's, any people's, heads.

The stigma attached to mental illness is so frustrating in so many ways. I used to feel scared to openly talk about my mental health with just anyone for fear of judgment or them possibly thinking 'well she's too much work' and you know what, if people do think like that they aren't really worth my time either. No one is 'too much work', every person on this planet is just as complex and interesting as the other and I truly believe that.

Mental health problems affect us all, directly or indirectly and they need to be spoken about instead of being left in the shadows of society.

*I don't struggle at all, in fact if I had never had anxiety and didn't have depression I wouldn't be who I am now, and I fucking love myself. 


Saturday, 6 May 2017


...because you're hungover as hell and she's hurting your eyes but you appreciate the warmth.


Good evening! Today's post is a late one because I've been at work all day, had internet issues yesterday and was horizontal on the sofa for most of Friday. I don't like to be the kind of person who blames alcohol for being a slob but that definitely was the reason and I think it's sort of okay because I'm a student, so if not now, when would it be acceptable.

I LOVE this outfit a hell of a lot, the skirt is from the teens section in newlook because I'm in denial about the fact I haven't been a teenager for quite a while and I really like it. I'd become bored of all my other denim skirts and wanted to replace them with at least one I actually like and this is perfect, it looks amazing with everything, especially this cute spring knit from H&M which makes me feel like I'm in primary school again. 

And then, THE SANDALS, how incredible, I am completely besotted with them. I have reached peak geography teacher goals with this sock and sandal combo and I'm way too pleased about it. Also plan on wearing these with everything.


Sunday, 30 April 2017

I'm Still 21... and wearing the yellow sparkly dress of your dreams

 Dress - Kimchi Blue via UO 
Shoes - Primark
Necklace - Pia

If you didn't already know I turned 21 and I'll be announcing it to the world as often as I can until I'm 22, at which point I'll just be obnoxiously singing Taylor Swift in everyone's face for a year. I wanted to take proper outfit photos of this dress because it is honestly so beautiful but there just wasn't time so here are some silly ones from before I drank anything... I got the dress for £45 down from £169 in Urban Outfitters a couple of weeks before my birthday, tried it on and fell in love and could not leave it behind, so my sister kindly lent me the money to get it (it was the end of term and I'm a poor student so) and I LOVE IT. The only problem was that the beading and gems did rub against my arm and scratch it quite badly. I look like I was attacked by a cat. I'm not sure if I can blame the dress for that because it probably was my fault for just moving about weird.

I had a lovely birthday week with my best pal and housemate Ellen (first photo) who also turned 21. Her and my other wonderful housemates got me the star necklace that you can barely see in the last photo which I completely adore and never want to take off - though I do because apparently you aren't meant to wear special jewellery in the shower/ in bed/ while doing yoga.

I'm no doubt going to recycle even more photos from the various different birthday things we did, I'd quite like to blog the alien make up we did for one of our nights out but the main reason for the recycling and the rushed posts is that I have deadlines and exams and uni stuff that I need to prioritise. Also my health, that needs prioritising too because I always end up getting more and more ill during exam season. 

Provided I'm organised I shall see you on Wednesday, post French exam, with some sort of outfit or alien make up post....


Tuesday, 25 April 2017



Fun fact: I paid for this jumper in almost entirely 10p coins... the cashier didn't seem too impressed. I love it. I love the colour red, it makes me happy and this a jumper so in this instance it also makes me cosy. Fishnet tights do not, on this day they were possibly the worst idea because I was actually freezing. It gets to about april and I sort of give up on coats and warm tights because I just assume I'll be fine. This is not true and I really should know that by the grand old age of 21.

I didn't do much over my easter break from uni due to illness which was a shame but this day I did manage to drag myself out for coffee with my sister and our friends and it was lovely. I got straight back into bed when I got home. Since all this I've had my birthday and nights out and a joint birthday party with my housemate, as well as being back at uni having had little to no sleep. I'm exhausted. I've had the best week back in Nottingham so far, but with friends handing in their dissertations and leaving uni this year I am starting to realise that it will be me next year and it is so scary. I have a vague idea of what I want to do with my life but right now I just don't want to leave NTU or Nottingham ever.


Wednesday, 19 April 2017

Birthday Blues


I'M 21! ! ! ! Can you believe it, I've made it this far without doing that much damage to myself *touch wood* and I still look cute and am interested in things. I think it would be very sad if I didn't have any interests, but because I'm 100% an adult now I do find it weird that I don't feel like one and my personality hasn't been overwhelmed by dullness. I don't know why I thought it would because most adults I know are very cool and fun. Simultaneously I have also always looked forward to my early 20s. 

When I was 11 I went to a Blondie concert with my Dad and there were some studenty-types sat behind us who were probably in their early 20s and I just thought they seemed the complete epitome of effortlessly cool. I have also always admired my Mums photos from her 20s and her stories of uni life and what followed. And I guess now that's me, my stories are happening now and one day I'll be telling them to my many cats.

Though I didn't do anything that special for my birthday, other than over eat, I dressed up, I had been planning this outfit for weeks and I adore it. I bought this jumpsuit a couple of months ago for summer but it was too nice to not wear before hand. The new vegan DM sandals were my birthday present and I couldn't be more pleased with them. I mostly hate sandals, I hate all the ones I've ever bought before, I have always had a lust for something chunky and not at all girly and these are perfect. They're pretty comfy so far and you can guarantee I'm going to wear them with everything I own. 

The way I pictured this post was some beautiful photos taken in a botanical gardens or a greenhouse but because it chucked it down literally all day we just did them in my bedroom and I actually really like them. The day out would have been nice, though I liked my day, I woke up at 6am and was really giddy all morning then sort of got super sleepy around midday so I would have been tired and grumpy had I left the house. I'm not keen on birthdays as it is but this one was fine.

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