Okay so I have not been this excited about a blog post in quite a while; partly because of the absolutely gorgeous photos my lovely friend Eilish took of me and partly because I actually have quite a lot to say.
For the most part, I’m in a really happy place at the moment, I’ve got loads of great new, gorgeous, creative friends; I’m super happy within myself and really enjoying dressing up and shooting and being a little busy body.
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I don’t know if I’m at that proper adult stage in life yet when everyone says it’s difficult to make friends... I thought I was but I’ve made loads of friends recently so maybe I’m not an adult yet? I’m definitely not trying to sound braggy or anything, I’ve just been hanging out with some seriously lovely gals and I’m really flipping happy about it. It’s weird growing up and moving away and friends moving off and suddenly you can’t just go and knock on for your mate or have a sleepover at the weekend. I’m so proud of all my friends for everything they’re all doing, I just wish I could see them more so now it’s nice that I have more friends who I can see and spend time with. I don’t think I’m explaining any of this particularly well but I’m sure some of you can relate. Basically, I’m saying that it’s nice having friends...
I say I’m mostly in a really happy place, and that is true and annoyingly I think it has a lot to do with the weather. As you may know, I have depression (wooooo) which is actually, probably, S.A.D (Seasonal Affective Disorder) as I have discussed with my Doctor who also thinks that’s the case. The problem with S.A.D is that you’d have to be having your mood monitored for literally years to know for sure that it is that and not just depression.
Now, because it’s been uncharacteristically sunny and warm for February in the UK the past few days, I’ve suddenly become a lot perkier and happy, which in turn is depressing because this weather is actually due to global warming which is terrible. Now I don’t want to lecture anyone on the effects humans have had on the planet as I shouldn’t need to, nor am I qualified to- but I do care, a lot, about the environment, more so than I do about my own mental health. I’m fine with having depression, it’s part of me and I kind of like that, I can rely on a somewhat never-ending sadness (lol help) and though it has been nice for the sun to come out and make me happy, I’d actually quite like a normal winter back.
So in conclusion, I like having friends, I tolerate depression and I do not like global warming. Thanks for listening to today’s TED talk?
PS- if you ever needed proof of my dyspraxic, wandering mind, this post is probably enough
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