The 22nd of July 2009 was the longest day I've ever had. Not because I didn't sleep or I was very busy but because it will last forever, it's still happening now and it always will be. Losing someone before they have a chance to leave their footprints on the world is something no one wants to experience but far too many have to. It's not something that will ever leave you, it's always there in the back of your mind, you can distract yourself from it and ignore it but you're always thinking, questioning why it happened and why not to you or anyone else. It sounds selfish, I wanted you to grow up with us, I wanted my little sister to experience the world, to be there on her 6th birthday when our mum saw a field mouse and I cried because I'm terrified of mice. I believe that everything that happens just happens, there doesn't have to be a reason. I understand that sometimes the reasons are all people have left to look to, but in a world where so many terrible and so many wonderful things happen, how can there be reasons?
On Wednesday my family and I celebrated what would have been my sister Florence's 6th birthday, she died a few hours after she was born and there's not much more you need to know. I dress up on her birthday as I do with any and every occasion hence it being on my blog as it would be had she been alive. My mum made this skirt a while ago for herself and it got handed down to me and I love it, I think it is a perfect all year round skirt and I just adore it.
Happy Birthday Florence Violet.